I've been having some dark and tired thoughts lately...call it a combination of chemical imbalance or schooling pressures. For posterity's sake, I have something philosophical I need to think out loud.
We all have lives here - among people, among society, among rules. We grow up subscribing to that environment because it's 'normal' - it keeps communities and families ticking. We've gotten this far as a race, so it must be working.
But it feels wrong at the same time - there are days where I want it to stop. I want the well-maintained, well-lubricated machine to just stop. The machine runs too fast.
It's not natural. Something in me screams that I don't belong here. We don't belong here.
We're like animals in a zoo.
Have you ever felt like that?
You want to go free - but you're also scared to exit the cage you walked into.
You get used to the inside - deadlines, consumerism, the social media rush. You neuter yourself.
We tame the wilderness inside of ourselves with such garbage.
Just now, I felt that wilderness kicking back again.
But it can't achieve anything when it's in this cage. It's maddening.
I can't even remember where this wilderness even belongs outside the cage anymore. Is there a point to releasing it?
Even if we did open our cages - we'll just get herded back in by force one day. For the good of society.
The worst thing is - we did this to ourselves.
Progress necessitates unity.
Unity necessitates conformity.
Conformity creates a vacuum called "deviancy".
And it tells us, "You're a good girl. Don't go out there."
"Get back in."
So we obey.
But still we cannot deny the instinct. The claustrophobia.
We do want out.
All of us.
We are all animals in cages.
Listening to: Giivasunner
Playing: Fire Emblem Fates: Revelation